||[Jul. 10th, 2007|08:55 pm]
Depersonalization & Derealization
I'm elfed and I'm 30 years old and have had chronic dp for more than 15 years now (probably even more like 20 years). I'm not sure what caused it, but in my case it may be a coping mechanism terribly gone wrong as I am also autistic and have ADD and used to have pretty severe OCD when I was younger, plus it may be related to stress from almost never sleeping near enough (since I can't really feel I'm tired) it and may also be allergy related.
Right now, I'm really determined to find something that helps, as I really want to feel alive again. My dp doesn't really make me suffer - I've had it for so long that I can hardly remember what life was like before dp, but it's annoying. I know it was possible for me to feel alife, "there", and in touch with the world, and I want it back !
I'm really interested in what helped you guys out there (I'm probably going to post a questionnaire (sp ?) later).
Right now, I'm seing a therapist, and have put myself on a gluten free and milk free diet and I've started taking some supplements, which seems to help somewhat.
On a scale from 1 - 10 (10 would mean being totally dp'd) I've been constantly somewhere between 8 and 9 for the last 20 years (I've NEVER been symptom free in all those years), and now I'd say I'm more like 6 or 7 most of the time, with an occasional 2 for a few seconds now and then (it feels like short flashes of reality *lol*), which is already a massive improvement.