||[Feb. 12th, 2007|05:11 pm]
Depersonalization & Derealization
Hello~! This community doesn't seem to have had any posts recently, but I figured I'd give it a shot. Firstly, my survey..
How long have you had DP/DR?
I had chronic DP/DR for nearly a year, from around July 2005 to April or May in 2006.
Do you have DP or DR or both?
A combination of the two. Maybe the DR was more prominant.
Do you know the cause of your DP/DR?
I can't pinpoint the exact cause, I can only hypothesize. The time when it began was a pretty transitional and stressful time in my life. My high school boyfriend of a year and a half and I had broken up, and I had started to see my current boyfriend. I was preparing to go away to college. I began attending the college that was basically my dream school (I know that sometimes, DP experiences can manifest in "too good to be true" kind of situations as well). The college schedule seemed to take a toll as well, and my sleep schedules changed, and I started to rely more on caffeine. Actually, to this day I try to avoid caffeine for the most part, as it tends to trigger me.
Is DP/DR a big part of your life?
It was a huge and horrible part of my life that nobody really knew about. My DP/DR made it nearly impossible for me to participate in school, and to form close relationships with new friends. Also an interesting symptom, I was so worn out from it that I was constantly tired, and my confusion and difficulty with communicating with others and even with myself often led me to spend a full day just sleeping. Essentially, all aspects of my life suffered- I went from a cheery, outgoing, intellectual girl to someone whose classmates were hard pressed to describe as anything but just "quiet."
Have you taken medication for your DP/DR?
No, I haven't.
Do you think you'll ever overcome your DP/DR?
My chronic DP/DR went away, as I said, in the spring of last year. While it was a gradual "lifing of the veil" as one could say, I do remember a particular moment, sitting on my boyfriend's bed and watching him play video games (yah, yah, not the most dramatic of situations..), when I realized all of the sudden that I wasn't DP/DR. This does not mean that I never have these experiences anymore. Caffeine is a big trigger of mine, as is sleep depravation, and too much philosophical thinking (silly-sounding but true). The other thing that I've noticed with regards to DPing in class was that the more I stay active in the discussion, rather than simply taking a passive role, the less likely it is for me to have the experience. I tend to think of it like- by keeping in constant communication, I am tying myself securely to the other people in the room, the reality of the room, and the reality of myself. At any rate, I do have to say that I still live in constant fear of a day when my chronic DP/DR could come back full force, I pray that it does not happen though.
Whew, that was long. Anyway, now on to a question for you guys. Right now in one of my psychology classes, we have a project to do. The assignment is kind of loose, but basically we have to make "something creative" that would help either people experiencing a disorder or their families and friends. Past examples of the projects were children's books, informative pamphlets, websites, films, etc. Naturally, I would like to do my project on DP/DR. So- I thought I might benefit from some input from others who have gone through or are going through it. What kind of thing would you find most useful, or would you most like to see your families and friends have access to? I hope you can help me out!